She's Not Me, and She Never Will Be...

Conceited Much?  I really like myself a lot.  It is mind boggling to me that I am still single.  Many years of pain and struggle have gone towards bringing me up to this point in my life.  I have put some hard work into it so I don't consider it to be conceited of me to say things like "I am a catch"...I am.

My friends confirm it for me.  They are the ones that are brutally honest right?  They are the ones telling me that they are also baffled at why I am still single.  I am really happy.  Maybe that is the difference.  Most the people I know in relationships are not.  They are stressed or depressed.  It is as if all the stress that you have finding a relationship doesn't matter because once you find it you only get more stress.  Is he cheating?  Is he lying?  Does he really like me THAT much?  When will our relationship end?  

What is the point in getting into a relationship if these are the stressors that you will encounter?  It seems like more stress than before hand.  Now all I worry about is "Will I find  him, or will I not?"

I met up with a buddy of mine from High School Monday night.  He happened to be in town and I would not have even known except for seeing his status on facebook.  We chatted about what was going on in our lives, then we reflected on some of the people we went to high school with.  We talked about who we keep in touch with and it was interesting to find that in high school he seemed so connect with our "group" but in his maturity realized that our class was made up of MOSTLY douchebags.  I think that is something that happens for everybody after a few years away from high school to reflect.  You have time to meet people that you realize ARE cool.  You might realize yourself that you are REALLY cool yourself.  Then you think back to the way things were in high school and realize that no one was cool and they actually all sucked.  It is even more important what you do with your life after you graduate than what you did during your adolescent years.  Your adulthood makes or breaks your cool factor.

We laughed about it.  We agreed that there weren't THAT many people to really keep in touch with.  We talked about what it has been like to run into certain people and hear how they talk about their "careers".  He mentioned one douche-bag at large that actually pulled his blackberry out and boasted about his sales numbers.

Like I said before, I am really happy with the way I have turned out.  Even if I am broke as a motherfucker I am one happy broke bitch.