Everywhere you look there is a picture of a young guy with ripped abs, and spikey hair. If the pictures are not right in your face then it is listed in the personal ads that these guys are posting. "Looking for similar"...has vanity reached a such a new high that we are trying to date ourselves? I would never think to put that in my profile. Maybe it is psychological. Maybe it is a sign that if I am not looking for someone that looks just like me that I am not happy with myself?
I don't think so. The funny thing about it is that I am happy with myself RIGHT NOW. The only thing from keeping me from complete happiness is someone to call my own. When I look around I feel like the only offers out there are looking for ripped muscular dudes (and since there are SO FEW of those around out there, the pickin's are quite slim). Who doesn't want a hot guy? Why would you go through the efforts of making up an online dating profile just to say "Hey, I'm just like everybody else, I want a hot guy with a flat stomach!". What is the point?
If we are all after the same thing then why do we need to list it?
Another thing that bothers me about this gay dating "scene" if you would even call it that, is that our attention spans are so short, we can't even grasp the idea that weight comes and goes.
These guys that are so in shape now, will reach a point when life and gravity has its way with them. Then they will be singing a different tune...aka..."I'll take anything I can get at this point!"
If they are so dedicated to the gym, then why wouldn't they want to start off as friends with a guy like me and help me stay motivated to work out? Weight comes and goes. I can't help but get discouraged when I think about the guys that are not coming after me now because of my weight, and then I think about what happens when I loose this weight. I don't want to date them then either! If they won't chase after me now, I don't want them at all!
So this makes me depressed, and gets me discouraged from working out. If I was dating someone I would be going to the gym all the time. I would be striving for the best me that I could give to them. I am almost too afraid to workout on my own for fear of finding someone who only liked me at a compatible weight or body type.
When I was home in Charlotte for a visit I spoke with my friend John about my weight. I tried to explain that I was fine, it was everybody else, and he told me that "all fat people say that".
Fuck you John, I told him. I explained that I was truly happy with my weight and my body. I am content to the point that I would never take diet pills or steroids or go on any ridiculously strict diets in order to JUST find someone to go out with me. Pointless right?
When this year is said and done, I do not think I will renew my gay card.
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