Celebrate the Wins

Okay so my fool proof plan would have been better served if not delivered by that of a fool. "You missed a pretty amazing brunch on Sunday"...Awkward Pause. Response: "Yeah." Not "Yeah?" Just "Yeah." Note...the period.

It fell flat after that. Amidst our typically falsified flirtatatious banter I still found myself dumbstruck. We spent over two hours together. My counterpart that is fully furnished says that he MUST be into me becuase what striaght guy would spend that much time with another dude that wasn't one of his close friends on a random Thursday afternoon.

I guess it feels good to realize that if nothing else, he enjoys spending time with me, right? Celebrate the wins. He smiles at me and doesn't flinch when I touch his arm. Celebrate the wins. He makes purposeful efforts to have more and more reasons to come back to see me. Celebrate the wins. He eats up everything I say. Celebrate the wins.

His birthday is tomorrow. He has no plans. He is between flights coming in to town from visiting friends in NYC and heading out the following week on a business trip. He seemed to make the effort to tell me his birthday was on Sunday. If this was not an unidentified "missed connection" then I don't know what is. I barely tell my best friends that it is my birthday, let alone the salesperson that picks out my ties.

Typically. If you have not yet thus far figured out. I over analyze. Everything. I do it all the time. And so do you, so shut up and let me keep going...

He is just normal. I am dying for us to just get on with our normal lives and give up everything else that is gay in the world. Wouldn't that be something special? Escape from all the vapid gays that are devoid of any real substance or worth. I would look forward to bringing him to brunch with my buddies. We could double date with the other couples that we knew. We would plan outdoorsy style events that we would venture off to do on the weekends. But my favorite part about our future would be the just me and him part. The times when we woke up in our room together and didn't step foot into the outside world.

He seems normal enough. Yet from his lack of giving off a gay effect I am really started to wonder if he is or if he isn't. I have plans to tell him happy birthday tomorrow but after that I don't know what to do. I have placed orders for multiple items for him. Could it have been a strategic move on his part? Tomorrow will not by any means be the last time I see him. I will get another visit this week when he comes to pick up the rest of the ordered items. So that is two instances that we have planned out thus far in our near future.

Here's hoping that he brings his wallet tomorrow and we can plan a few more...