seriously. who knew that when you grew up you would be all alone and have to make your own decisions. and your own damn peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. even if your mom really DOES make them better than anybody else!
Even though I am 27 I still feel like I am in my early twenties. Not by the way I act. I mostly stay in on the weekends and watch movies like an old maid. If I do go out for a drink, one glass of wine has me swinging from the rafters.
It is more so just as far as my credibility as an actual adult. I think this is a feeling that stays with you for a while after reaching "adulthood" status. Its scary. Because you can acknowledge that you are supposed to make your own decisions and in your head you keep telling yourself over and over, I believe in me, I believe in me, but at the end of the day, are we ever really sure of ourselves?
Being in Boston this past year has been a long hard journey. Who is to say if it is over. or not. but for what it is worth I have learned a LOT. I was put to the test, financially, emotionally..and every other -ally that you can think of! I spent much of the year with lonely times; a feeling not uncommon in my lifetime. Much of my childhood was pretty lonely as well. There were times when I felt all alone, but the irony of it is that I never really was. My family was always there for me. I made attempts to push and shove them away while growing up in the crazy world of adolescence but they kept coming after me. One of the biggest things I have learned about myself this year is that the people I seem to miss the most are my family, mainly my mom and dad.
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