Saturday, January 30, 2010

Perpetually Single

A close friend of mine used this to describe me recently. I know (or at least, don't think) that he meant it as words meant to hurt but they did. It was like stating a fact that I don't enjoy acknowledging.

We were talking about jobs. We both work in retail. He mentioned that the hours required of our work really gets to him and that it had worked for me because I am "perpetually single". I guess it made me angry because work is tough for me right now. I am working on liking it better by making a few changes here and there. But it is hard to agree or own up to a title of "perpetually single", when it is not one that I have chosen for myself. Its not like I am so committed to my work that I stay away from dating.

I am WIDE OPEN to dating. I am perpetually single because I'm not going to settle down with someone out of comfort or convenience. Life is too short to waste with one worthless person.
Why should I keep dating someone that I am not physically attracted to? If someone says that they don't believe God exists why would I continue to date them? Why would I want to bother dating someone that tells me upfront that they do not believe in monogamy? To me, this belief is so far fetched I cannot even fathom the validity of such a thought.

I've kicked TwentyTen off with a bang by going on more dates in the month of January than I had all year long in 2009. Just cause they were first dates, and will not be second dates doesn't mean that I am meant to be "perpetually single".

What a ridiculous thing to say. It made me so angry. It made me angry because I have made changes in my life and taken chances in order to bring about that change. I have changed surroundings. I have changed behaviors. I have bettered myself as an end result. I'm becoming more and more happy with the person that I am every day, and I can't let an asshole call me "perpetually single" indicating that it is me, and not them.


What a crock of shit.

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