Only Just Begun

How on earth did I get here? Where did I come from? Where am I going? Sometimes these questions just rise up in my mind. It still amazes me that I made it out of Charlotte, North Carolina. I never had the feeling that I needed to get away but when I look back on it I know that I never would have made it if I had stayed. Its a scary thought. I did it. I left. I started over. I started from scratch. I worked at it. I moved away. I moved on. I grew up. I'm still growing.

Jo and I were in the car this morning and we were admitting to one another that it has been a while since we asked our parents for money. It was a good feeling to admit to one another. We shook our heads and acknowledged that sometimes being an adult means being flat out broke. I guess it is an endless battle, chasing after this dreamlike adulthood. What on earth were we thinking as children? Why did we ever grow up? The class of 1999 from my High School celebrated their Ten Year Reunion last night and it is just weird. That marks the official one year countdown until my own class reunion. It just feels like this is premature. Out of all the things I have learned over the past ten years I can't help feeling like I haven't learned anything at all. I feel as though I am the same person I was 10 years ago but this much I know is certainly not true.

I'm not the same as it used to be, but I am the best me I can be...